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[zichen]

Zichen leans back and offers himself as a nice place to rest. Then he kisses Xue Yang's forehead, lingering there as if to remind himself that he too isn't alone.

"You scared me. I saw the cabin and I thought you had been attacked."

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Xue Yang actually feels a little bad hearing that.

"Sorry..." he murmurs as he snuggles closer.

He'd just been upset, and unfortunately he has a tendency towards the destructive when that happens.

[zichen]

"Don't be." Zichen tucks their heads together, smiling faintly, "You're safe and I found you."

No door could stand in his way. No wall could either for that matter.

"Everything can be repaired or replaced except for you."

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Oh. Despite everything else, Xue Yang does feel a warm sensation that isn't because of the bath starting to spread within. He's never been told he's important like that before.

"You could probably find someone else here who's annoying and wrecks your cabin," he says, trying to sound light-hearted, but that's not really working with the mood he's in.

[zichen]

"I don't want them." Zichen answers softly, his voice a little stern, "I want Xue Yang. I can weather all of his moods - just as he can weather mine." he rubs over his lover's chest and kisses his shoulder.

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The reassuring is just what he needs even if he still struggles to understand why Song Lan would want him. He doesn't dare fully trusting it, but Song Lan has so far consistently been there for him when he's needed him, and that means more than Xue Yang can put into words.

"Mm... I guess we can fight about it if we really piss each other off," he murmurs, but his tone is a little lighter this time. Almost fond.

[zichen]

"We can." Zichen agrees, his tone almost tender as he brushes a kiss against Xue Yang's ear, "We probably will fight eventually. But that won't ruin anything. If you need me, I will find you." and do all he can to make the Barge a kinder, more forgiving space.

Living under the weight of loss and guilt is no way to live.

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"Mm... I wouldn't mind sparring with you sometime," he murmurs. Song Lan is a much better swordsman, so Xue Yang figures he could learn a thing or two from him. He'd just have to ask Zack to ask the Admiral to make it so that his sword can be used for that...

[zichen]

"Come to my class and stay after." Zichen smiles and lifts Xue Yang's broken hand, kissing his knuckles, "We can try techniques that won't strain your hands as much. Jiangzai can be a handful."

Much like their owner.

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Xue Yang blushes a little when his broken hand is kissed and with some hesitation he removes the glove he always wears on it. He's still sensitive about that hand, but Song Lan has at least heard the important part of the story of how he lost his finger.

He quickly lets the hand down into the water so it too can soak in the warmth. It always makes those stiff fingers feel better.

"I didn't know you had a class," he says to take the attention off of himself. And because he is curious.

[zichen]

Zichen hums his approval, nuzzling his lips against Xue Yang's neck as that poor hand soaks in the water. Letting those fingers get cold must ache horribly. He carefully, slowly, slides his hand down Xue Yang's arm and lays his fingers over the broken fingers. Healing energy will soon pass between them, warm and soothing.

"Mm I do. I teach sword defense and basic healing."

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That just intensifies Xue Yang's blush. The ache in his fingers disappears entirely thanks to the healing, though he knows it's only a temporary solution, it still feels really good.

"Huh. Do you have any students yet?" he asks, slowly tracing along Song Lan's chest with his right hand.

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Temporary relief is better than nothing - and Zichen has ideas for new braces they can try. Braces that stabilize all of Xue Yang's fingers, though, in return, it will effect his grip. Less pain might make it worthwhile, however.

"A few." he smiles at the sweet curiosity, "You would be my best."

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"Who are they?" Xue Yang can't help but to be curious. He also wonders if he knows any of them... "Would I? It's been a while since I properly used Jiangzai... I'd have to ask Zack too, because I can only use it for self-defense right now." He rolls his eyes a little as he lets a finger trail down between Song Lan's pecs.

[zichen]

"You'll have to come and meet them." Zichen is only partially teasing. It would be good for Xue Yang to make friends.

...and maybe...one day...teach too?

"Everything would come back to you." he tilts his head, "Isn't that what I'm teaching? Self-defense?"

But, yes, he agrees, Zack should know. His gaze follows that finger and then he brushes their noses together.

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"I guess," Xue Yang concedes, a little reluctantly.

"Yeah, but I can't attack unless someone attacks me first, so I'd be at a disadvantage. I could ask to modify the restrictions to allow for sparring too?"

The finger continues its journey until it reaches Song Lan's stomach. He stops when their noses touch and leans up to kiss him.

[zichen]

"Ask for sparring under warden supervision." Zichen shivers and sucks in a soft breath. He doesn't mind that finger exploring further. But their kisses are too decadent to miss!

He meets Xue Yang halfway and strokes his fingertips up his lover's back.

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"Mm, I will..." Xue Yang is perfectly happy to just distract himself with kisses and touches. The pain of losing Xiao Xingchen for good is still there, of course, not likely to go away anytime soon. Maybe not ever. But... Song Lan's mouth is hot and welcoming, and he's really helped him think about other things. Made him feel a little safer.

So he deepens the kiss and slides his tongue inside as he snuggles closer to his lover.

[zichen]

"I trust you." Zichen smiles a little at himself, amazed he can say those words to Xue Yang of all people! But...he can. Xue Yang as he is now won't use Jiangzai to terrorize anyone. That blade will only come out for self-defense and Zichen wants to teach him better ways to handle tense situations.

Besides, he plans to be there if any tense situation occurs. He won't leave Xue Yang to deal with it alone.

Moaning softly, he pushes his grief over Xiao Xingchen from his mind and instead embraces the man who needs him the most. Being here like this isn't bad at all. He brushes their tongues together in a secret spar and hugs his lover to him snugly.

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Being told he's trusted also makes him feel funny inside because he doesn't really trust himself. Reacting with violence tends to be his default response when someone upsets or provokes him. And if not violence, then insults and cruelties.

At least right now, Song Lan has successfully distracted him from any such things, and now he just wants some of that intimacy he's always so hungry for. Feeling that he's wanted is even more important to him now, after so much rejection. Song Lan has become surprisingly important to him.

He lets out a pleased sigh and slides his arms around Song Lan's neck, kissing him even deeper, needier.

[zichen]

Everything takes practice. Once these harsh, painful emotions begin to ease, Zichen will test Xue Yang. He will purposefully anger him to see what he does; how he handles himself. If they spar, so be it. Eventually he will let the younger man in on the ruse and then they can discuss better strategies.

But not now. Zichen is hungry for company; hungry for Xue Yang and his feverish kisses. His hands move over his lover's back and sides with open affection and he sucks on the tongue that pays him a visit.

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Xue Yang lets out a low moan into Song Lan's mouth. He's become quite addicted to these kisses, and to Song Lan's touches. Hardly a day has gone by since this started that they haven't been intimate. He slides his tongue along Song Lan's, and takes the time to fully explore the insides of his mouth with his own.

[zichen]

Zichen had feared, when they began this, that Xue Yang would be sated after once...or twice. He was afraid he would be used and then left behind. But the other man has proven himself to either be very hungry for intimacy (aren't they both?) or...loyal...in his own way.

Groaning, Zichen grabs hold of Xue Yang's backside and rocks their hips together. Slowly. He isn't in any rush.

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Sex has been very low on Xue Yang's priority list for... many years. Being with Song Lan though... it has ignited a passion in him, one that he hadn't realized could be so strong. No one else interests him.

A breathy moan escapes him and he moves to better straddle Song Lan's lap to press them together closer. He's starting to harden and he wants his lover to feel it.

[zichen]

Sex has never been a priority! Before Xue Yang, Song Zichen had been a virgin. Now... Ah, he seems to be making up for lost time? To put it nicely.

He sucks on Xue Yang's lips as if they are candies, licking the plump flesh with a soft groan. Oh he feels that hardness! Grinning, he cups his lover's groin, encouraging more.