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[zichen]

"You'll have to come and meet them." Zichen is only partially teasing. It would be good for Xue Yang to make friends.

...and maybe...one day...teach too?

"Everything would come back to you." he tilts his head, "Isn't that what I'm teaching? Self-defense?"

But, yes, he agrees, Zack should know. His gaze follows that finger and then he brushes their noses together.

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"I guess," Xue Yang concedes, a little reluctantly.

"Yeah, but I can't attack unless someone attacks me first, so I'd be at a disadvantage. I could ask to modify the restrictions to allow for sparring too?"

The finger continues its journey until it reaches Song Lan's stomach. He stops when their noses touch and leans up to kiss him.

[zichen]

"Ask for sparring under warden supervision." Zichen shivers and sucks in a soft breath. He doesn't mind that finger exploring further. But their kisses are too decadent to miss!

He meets Xue Yang halfway and strokes his fingertips up his lover's back.

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"Mm, I will..." Xue Yang is perfectly happy to just distract himself with kisses and touches. The pain of losing Xiao Xingchen for good is still there, of course, not likely to go away anytime soon. Maybe not ever. But... Song Lan's mouth is hot and welcoming, and he's really helped him think about other things. Made him feel a little safer.

So he deepens the kiss and slides his tongue inside as he snuggles closer to his lover.

[zichen]

"I trust you." Zichen smiles a little at himself, amazed he can say those words to Xue Yang of all people! But...he can. Xue Yang as he is now won't use Jiangzai to terrorize anyone. That blade will only come out for self-defense and Zichen wants to teach him better ways to handle tense situations.

Besides, he plans to be there if any tense situation occurs. He won't leave Xue Yang to deal with it alone.

Moaning softly, he pushes his grief over Xiao Xingchen from his mind and instead embraces the man who needs him the most. Being here like this isn't bad at all. He brushes their tongues together in a secret spar and hugs his lover to him snugly.

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Being told he's trusted also makes him feel funny inside because he doesn't really trust himself. Reacting with violence tends to be his default response when someone upsets or provokes him. And if not violence, then insults and cruelties.

At least right now, Song Lan has successfully distracted him from any such things, and now he just wants some of that intimacy he's always so hungry for. Feeling that he's wanted is even more important to him now, after so much rejection. Song Lan has become surprisingly important to him.

He lets out a pleased sigh and slides his arms around Song Lan's neck, kissing him even deeper, needier.

[zichen]

Everything takes practice. Once these harsh, painful emotions begin to ease, Zichen will test Xue Yang. He will purposefully anger him to see what he does; how he handles himself. If they spar, so be it. Eventually he will let the younger man in on the ruse and then they can discuss better strategies.

But not now. Zichen is hungry for company; hungry for Xue Yang and his feverish kisses. His hands move over his lover's back and sides with open affection and he sucks on the tongue that pays him a visit.

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Xue Yang lets out a low moan into Song Lan's mouth. He's become quite addicted to these kisses, and to Song Lan's touches. Hardly a day has gone by since this started that they haven't been intimate. He slides his tongue along Song Lan's, and takes the time to fully explore the insides of his mouth with his own.

[zichen]

Zichen had feared, when they began this, that Xue Yang would be sated after once...or twice. He was afraid he would be used and then left behind. But the other man has proven himself to either be very hungry for intimacy (aren't they both?) or...loyal...in his own way.

Groaning, Zichen grabs hold of Xue Yang's backside and rocks their hips together. Slowly. He isn't in any rush.

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Sex has been very low on Xue Yang's priority list for... many years. Being with Song Lan though... it has ignited a passion in him, one that he hadn't realized could be so strong. No one else interests him.

A breathy moan escapes him and he moves to better straddle Song Lan's lap to press them together closer. He's starting to harden and he wants his lover to feel it.

[zichen]

Sex has never been a priority! Before Xue Yang, Song Zichen had been a virgin. Now... Ah, he seems to be making up for lost time? To put it nicely.

He sucks on Xue Yang's lips as if they are candies, licking the plump flesh with a soft groan. Oh he feels that hardness! Grinning, he cups his lover's groin, encouraging more.

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Xue Yang is certainly not complaining! He lets out several breathy moans, one after the other, when his lips are sucked and licked.

"Song Lan..." he breathes between their lips, rocking into his lover's hand as his cock stiffens further. There's a certain urgent, desperate need in his eyes and voice as he rocks, that seems to say please don't leave me.

[zichen]

Just the sound makes him hungry and he licks at the delicate corners of Xue Yang's mouth. Only to then hear his name. Said like that. Zichen works his hand into Xue Yang's trousers and holds onto the hardness. The hardness caused by him.

"Xue Yang."

I'm staying.

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Xue Yang whines softly, his cock twitching in his lover's hand. Hearing his name said like that is reassuring, as it seems like Song Lan understands what he wants without him having to say it out loud. He grasps Song Lan's face between his hands and kisses him again, deep and passionate.

[zichen]

Zichen trembles and comes to...a decision. He enjoys the kiss, tangling their tongues together until he needs air. Then, he gasps and touches Xue Yang's cheek.

"I want you...inside of me."

As much as it frightens him, he is ready to give Xue Yang that much power over him.

"Can you do that?"

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Xue Yang's eyebrows raise in surprise. "You really want that?" He puts their heads together and smiles a little. "I can do it, but we should get out of the bath first." Or he won't be able to see what he's doing! And with Song Lan being bigger and heavier, having him on his lap would probably be a little uncomfortable...

[zichen]

"Mm." Zichen nods and returns the smile, embracing Xue Yang to him, "I trust you." and what better way to demonstrate that trust?

The thoughtfulness just reassures him further and he kisses Xue Yang tenderly.

"Are you ready to go back to my cabin?"

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Xue Yang nods and kisses him back. "I don't want to be in mine." He doesn't want all the reminders, especially not when he's being intimate with Song Lan. He gives him another kiss before reluctantly getting out of the bath to grab towels for them.

[zichen]

"You don't have to ever go back there." Zichen reminds him and follows him out, drying Xue Yang with one of the towels and kissing his neck, "We'll clean up everything tomorrow. The bed is fine."

He is much more focused on them just...finding comfort. Being together. Tonight is the hardest.

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Xue Yang nods and leans into Song Lan, snuggling into the towel and his lover's body. Eventually he grabs for his clothes to get dressed again, but he stays close to Song Lan the entire time. He just... really needs to be close to him right now. To not feel so alone.

[zichen]

Zichen embraces him, giving him a little squeeze around his waist before he pulls back to dry off and get dressed. He likes how close they remain and when he is ready, he picks up Xue Yang again and carries him to...

Their cabin. Yes, everything is a mess, but Zichen steps over the broken pieces and lays Xue Yang on the bed.

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Xue Yang lets out a surprised little squeak when he's lifted again. He hadn't expected it! He's not complaining though, and instead makes himself comfortable in Song Lan's arms. He feels a little guilty at the sight of the wrecked cabin. He hadn't been in a clear state of mind when he'd done it, and he hadn't realized just how bad it had been.

At least the bed is intact. "Come here," he says softly, grasping Song Lan's hands to tug him down on the bed with him.

[zichen]

Zichen has other plans for Xue Yang's energy. He grins at the squeak and kisses the bridge of his lover's nose. Then he carries them home. Oh their home is messy, but like he said earlier: things can be fixed or replaced. They don't matter to him nearly as much as Xue Yang does.

The request is answered immediately and Zichen crawls over the younger man, gently freeing them of their robes.

"I'm here. I promised I would find you if you needed me. I will keep that promise."

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Xue Yang slides a hand up Song Lan's chest as soon as they're both undressed. He snuggles up close and presses a kiss to his lover's shoulder, his cheeks heating up a little.

"I'm not... used to be able to trust people," Xue Yang murmurs awkwardly.

[zichen]

Zichen smiles warmly at the beautiful sight beneath him. He takes hold of Xue Yang's cock again, exploring the shaft with strong fingers. The kiss leaves him warm and he captures Xue Yang's lips in a second kiss, moaning.

"...just...a step at a time." he grabs the salve and holds it out to his lover, "One day at a time."