[Xingchen can find his way there and when he arrives, he goes straight to their room. Xue Yang might notice two new acquisitions in said room - an air conditioner and an interesting alarm clock. The former can blow cool air as well as aphrodisiac ridden air and the clock...well. It can make waking up quite pleasurable.]
[ Xue Yang has indeed noticed, especially since he had been given an exact same alarm clock - though he has no idea how it works or what it is. He's just put it down next to the other one.
He's sitting on the bed when he hears Xingchen's voice and gets up to open the door. Without a word he wraps his arm around Xingchen and buries his face into his neck. Comfort please! ]
[Oh Xingchen has no idea what to do with either, yet he was told the air conditioner would at least keep them cool during the hotter months.
The silent embrace surprises him - Xue Yang is usually so energetic and talkative. Xingchen closes the door behind him and wraps his lover in his arms.]
[Xingchen lowers his head to nuzzle Xue Yang's neck, kissing the warm skin. Then he leads his lover back to the bed.]
Zichen is a good man. You shouldn't hate him. [He sits down and offers Xue Yang his lap.] But you are becoming a good man too. I love you, A-Yang. Zichen knows that, too.
[ Xue Yang sits down in Xingchen's lap without hesitation and stays snuggled up to him. ]
I did before. Because he ruined everything. That's how it felt. [ He puts his head on Xingchen's shoulder and sighs. ] But he then just... kinda became all I had left. It was kind of comforting in a way. [ He presses his lips to the side of Xingchen's throat. ] I love you too.
[He welcomes him with a kiss to the cheek and a warm embrace.]
You were frightened of me learning the truth and hating you. Zichen was just someone for you to focus on. You thought if you killed him, your worries would be over.
[He strokes his fingers through Xue Yang's hair.]
I know he watched you. He saw your pain in a way I couldn't. I should have stayed. I failed you both.
Y-Yeah. I didn't think you could ever... ever want me around if you knew. [ And Song Lan showing up had pretty much been his biggest fear. ]
It's not your fault. I hurt you so much... I drove you to it. I'm sorry. [ He leans into the touches through his hair, a pleased little sound following. ]
I want you...and I need you, Xue Yang. [Xingchen holds him tighter and frowns.] You came back to life. I'm not going to waste the time we have together being angry at you.
Zichen... [He softens and nuzzles Xue Yang's shoulder.] He told me about how you were... My A-Yang, I wish I could have come back for you.
[ Xue Yang sniffles and buries his face against Xingchen's neck again. Those words are exactly what he's needed to hear. ]
I... I wished that too. So much. I drove myself crazy trying to get you back. [ And now they're finally together again. ] I... refused to understand that you didn't want to come back.
He didn't? [ That surprises Xue Yang a little. He's not sure how Song Lan feels about him, or how he'd felt back then. ] I made him kill for me... He should hate me.
[ He shudders a little as he memory of Xingchen slitting his own throat returns to him. He cuddles up closer to Xingchen. ] Y-Yeah. It was shattered. I could feel it, but I... I wanted to think there was a way to bring you back anyway.
He doesn't. [Xingchen answers quietly, turning Xue Yang's head so he can kiss him, tenderly, on the lips.] He didn't like killing you.
[Because, at a certain point, justice becomes...grey. Xue Yang's death didn't fix the loss of his life, his tongue and Xingchen; if anything, it probably made Zichen lonelier.]
I never meant to make you so miserable. [Xingchen lays back on the bed and holds Xue Yang against him.]
I won't push you away. I would be a fool to let you go. [And he has been foolish enough.] Even Zichen knows how much you love me. I... That's what I need. All I need.
Xue Yang presses even closer once they're laying down. He slides a leg over Xingchen's hip so that they can have even more intimacy. ] I told you, it's not your fault. I made myself miserable. I... didn't know how to keep you.
[ He nuzzles Xingchen's neck and kisses it. ] I'm not good at sharing... but I'll try for you.
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[Video]
Date: 2023-04-21 10:19 am (UTC)I'm... I'm not against the idea. How would you suggest we go about it?
Re: [Video]
Date: 2023-04-21 07:27 pm (UTC)[ And being present himself would help with the jealousy... ]
[Video]
Date: 2023-04-22 01:55 am (UTC)[Or is he mishearing?]
Re: [Video]
Date: 2023-04-22 06:00 am (UTC)Is it really that surprising? I don't... I don't want you to forget me because he's here...
[Video]
Date: 2023-04-22 09:28 pm (UTC)Have I ever seemed contrary to you? I love you. That doesn't change because Zichen is here.
Re: [Video]
Date: 2023-04-23 10:51 am (UTC)Can you come here? I'm at home.
[ He'd rather talk in person so that he can have the added reassurance of physical proximity and comfort. ]
[Video] -> [Action]
Date: 2023-04-23 11:01 am (UTC)[Xingchen can find his way there and when he arrives, he goes straight to their room. Xue Yang might notice two new acquisitions in said room - an air conditioner and an interesting alarm clock. The former can blow cool air as well as aphrodisiac ridden air and the clock...well. It can make waking up quite pleasurable.]
A-Yang?
[Action]
Date: 2023-04-23 11:05 am (UTC)He's sitting on the bed when he hears Xingchen's voice and gets up to open the door. Without a word he wraps his arm around Xingchen and buries his face into his neck. Comfort please! ]
[Action]
Date: 2023-04-23 11:15 am (UTC)The silent embrace surprises him - Xue Yang is usually so energetic and talkative. Xingchen closes the door behind him and wraps his lover in his arms.]
Did I frighten you?
Re: [Action]
Date: 2023-04-23 11:17 am (UTC)I thought maybe you'd... prefer him over me.
[Action]
Date: 2023-04-23 11:23 am (UTC)No. You are too firmly wedged in my heart.
Re: [Action]
Date: 2023-04-23 11:29 am (UTC)I don't... I don't hate him. [ He admits in a low murmur. ] I just don't want to be left out...
[Action]
Date: 2023-04-23 11:32 am (UTC)Zichen is a good man. You shouldn't hate him. [He sits down and offers Xue Yang his lap.] But you are becoming a good man too. I love you, A-Yang. Zichen knows that, too.
Re: [Action]
Date: 2023-04-23 11:35 am (UTC)I did before. Because he ruined everything. That's how it felt. [ He puts his head on Xingchen's shoulder and sighs. ] But he then just... kinda became all I had left. It was kind of comforting in a way. [ He presses his lips to the side of Xingchen's throat. ] I love you too.
[Action]
Date: 2023-04-23 11:47 am (UTC)You were frightened of me learning the truth and hating you. Zichen was just someone for you to focus on. You thought if you killed him, your worries would be over.
[He strokes his fingers through Xue Yang's hair.]
I know he watched you. He saw your pain in a way I couldn't. I should have stayed. I failed you both.
[A little shiver follows the kiss.]
Yet you're both kind enough to want me.
Re: [Action]
Date: 2023-04-23 11:53 am (UTC)It's not your fault. I hurt you so much... I drove you to it. I'm sorry. [ He leans into the touches through his hair, a pleased little sound following. ]
[Action]
Date: 2023-04-23 11:59 am (UTC)Zichen... [He softens and nuzzles Xue Yang's shoulder.] He told me about how you were... My A-Yang, I wish I could have come back for you.
Re: [Action]
Date: 2023-04-23 12:02 pm (UTC)I... I wished that too. So much. I drove myself crazy trying to get you back. [ And now they're finally together again. ] I... refused to understand that you didn't want to come back.
[Action]
Date: 2023-04-23 12:04 pm (UTC)That's what he said. Watching you was painful for him. He didn't like seeing you that way.
[Xingchen can only imagine how tattered his spirit must have been to refuse all spells.]
I must have cut my spirit into pieces. Shuanghua can do that.
Re: [Action]
Date: 2023-04-23 12:08 pm (UTC)[ He shudders a little as he memory of Xingchen slitting his own throat returns to him. He cuddles up closer to Xingchen. ] Y-Yeah. It was shattered. I could feel it, but I... I wanted to think there was a way to bring you back anyway.
[Action]
Date: 2023-04-23 12:27 pm (UTC)[Because, at a certain point, justice becomes...grey. Xue Yang's death didn't fix the loss of his life, his tongue and Xingchen; if anything, it probably made Zichen lonelier.]
I'm here now.
Re: [Action]
Date: 2023-04-23 12:31 pm (UTC)[ He nuzzles Xingchen's neck. ] Yeah. I don't... I don't ever want to lose you again.
[Action]
Date: 2023-04-23 12:35 pm (UTC)I won't push you away. I would be a fool to let you go. [And he has been foolish enough.] Even Zichen knows how much you love me. I... That's what I need. All I need.
Re: [Action]
Date: 2023-04-23 12:38 pm (UTC)[ He nuzzles Xingchen's neck and kisses it. ] I'm not good at sharing... but I'll try for you.
Re: [Action]
Date: 2023-04-23 12:41 pm (UTC)First of all, you're not keeping me. I'm choosing to stay.
[Xingchen lays Xue Yang's hand over his heart.]
Second of all, it's not sharing. At least, not what I have in mind. [He blushes.] You think Zichen is handsome, don't you?
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