Xue Yang feels his face warm a little as he leans even more into Song Lan's arms. He sounds so sincere that Xue Yang can almost fully believe it. Instead of saying anything, he leans up to kiss him.
The kiss is met with quiet enthusiasm. The reminder of Xue Yang's soft lips and clever tongue leaves him delighted. His A-Yang, the one that could have almost been a product of a good dream, is right here. Zichen is convinced of that.
It's terrifying to feel like this for another person after all the heartache his feelings for Xiao Xingchen has caused, but it's difficult not to when Song Lan seems to want him right back. He's still half convinced that Song Lan is going to come to his senses and realize that he can't possibly be with someone like him, but...
He lets out a pleased little sigh into the kiss when their tongues meet, deepening the kiss further to taste his lover.
The kitten is gently scooped up and placed on a cushioned chair. Zichen doesn't stop kissing Xue Yang for a moment as he completes the task, using his other senses to make sure the baby is safe. The tom cat soon joins the kitten, curling around her.
All is well. Wrapping his arms snugly around Xue Yang's waist, he carries him to the bed. Their bed. Then he lays down, letting his lover choose whether he climbs over him or lays beside him.
Xue Yang melts into the kiss, wrapping both arms around Song Lan as he's welcomed into that hot mouth. He nuzzles into his neck when he's lifted and carried, clinging to him during the short walk to the bed. He makes the decision to crawl up next to Song Lan, immediately snuggling up to him.
The weight of Xue Yang leaning against him is sweet. Zichen's first instinct is to carry him to a place where he can rest. He smiles under the nuzzling and lays down on the bed, curious where Xue Yang will choose to be.
The choice makes his throat feel tight and he welcomes the younger man with a soft embrace.
"Mhm... they do," Xue Yang murmurs as he glances over to the cuddling cats. He nuzzles into Song Lan's neck and clings slightly to him. He's been so starved for touch and affection that he's become addicted to it now that he can get it so freely from Song Lan.
While rubbing over Xue Yang's back and arm, Zichen brushes his lips against the younger man's cheek. Then he relaxes back and hums contentedly. He likes this. He likes having company.
He...likes...Xue Yang. More than he should and far more than he ever thought he would.
But... He is needed. Zichen can't help but respond to that.
Being happy... what a strange feeling. The breach had happened at just the right time to distract him from his grief over Xiao Xingchen, though it might've also just postponed it. The fact that Xiao Xingchen is gone and that he'll never see him again hasn't quite hit him yet. Not fully. Not even after his initial reaction to finding out.
Song Lan has made things easier though...
He makes a non-committal sound and nuzzles closer, burrowing against Song Lan's side.
He doesn't want to think about Xiao Xingchen being out of their reach. Zichen isn't sure how to digest that news or how to overcome his own grief - much less help Xue Yang with his. So they need distractions and the breach had given them a nice one.
His eyes burn and he closes them, curling around Xue Yang and reminding himself that he isn't alone. He isn't as dead as he thought he was either. There is some...hope. Just a glimmer, but enough of a glimmer to pursue.
It had definitely been a nice distraction! And so is this. He's not ready to feel all the pain of everything, and he has a feeling that Song Lan isn't either. That's probably all this is...
He shudders a little to himself as if cold and buries his face into Song Lan's chest, clinging even tighter to him.
Xue Yang knows that if he lost Song Lan too at this point... it would be devastating. He'd probably never recover. That scares him. It makes him want to push him away, but it also makes him want to cling tighter, closer. The latter is definitely the stronger instinct.
He grabs the blanket in their bed and pulls it up over them for extra warmth.
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Date: 2023-11-22 03:50 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2023-11-22 04:02 pm (UTC)He just needs to coax him out.
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Date: 2023-11-22 04:06 pm (UTC)He lets out a pleased little sigh into the kiss when their tongues meet, deepening the kiss further to taste his lover.
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Date: 2023-11-23 02:01 am (UTC)All is well. Wrapping his arms snugly around Xue Yang's waist, he carries him to the bed. Their bed. Then he lays down, letting his lover choose whether he climbs over him or lays beside him.
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Date: 2023-11-23 09:18 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-11-24 01:20 am (UTC)The choice makes his throat feel tight and he welcomes the younger man with a soft embrace.
"They seem happy."
The cats, that is.
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Date: 2023-11-24 10:41 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-11-24 11:37 am (UTC)He...likes...Xue Yang. More than he should and far more than he ever thought he would.
But... He is needed. Zichen can't help but respond to that.
"I like seeing you happy."
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Date: 2023-11-30 09:46 pm (UTC)Being happy... what a strange feeling. The breach had happened at just the right time to distract him from his grief over Xiao Xingchen, though it might've also just postponed it. The fact that Xiao Xingchen is gone and that he'll never see him again hasn't quite hit him yet. Not fully. Not even after his initial reaction to finding out.
Song Lan has made things easier though...
He makes a non-committal sound and nuzzles closer, burrowing against Song Lan's side.
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Date: 2023-12-01 01:02 am (UTC)His eyes burn and he closes them, curling around Xue Yang and reminding himself that he isn't alone. He isn't as dead as he thought he was either. There is some...hope. Just a glimmer, but enough of a glimmer to pursue.
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Date: 2023-12-06 08:47 pm (UTC)He shudders a little to himself as if cold and buries his face into Song Lan's chest, clinging even tighter to him.
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Date: 2023-12-07 12:27 pm (UTC)He frowns at the shudder and does what he can to warm Xue Yang, rubbing over his arms and back.
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Date: 2023-12-15 06:24 pm (UTC)He grabs the blanket in their bed and pulls it up over them for extra warmth.