He doesn't want to think about Xiao Xingchen being out of their reach. Zichen isn't sure how to digest that news or how to overcome his own grief - much less help Xue Yang with his. So they need distractions and the breach had given them a nice one.
His eyes burn and he closes them, curling around Xue Yang and reminding himself that he isn't alone. He isn't as dead as he thought he was either. There is some...hope. Just a glimmer, but enough of a glimmer to pursue.
It had definitely been a nice distraction! And so is this. He's not ready to feel all the pain of everything, and he has a feeling that Song Lan isn't either. That's probably all this is...
He shudders a little to himself as if cold and buries his face into Song Lan's chest, clinging even tighter to him.
Xue Yang knows that if he lost Song Lan too at this point... it would be devastating. He'd probably never recover. That scares him. It makes him want to push him away, but it also makes him want to cling tighter, closer. The latter is definitely the stronger instinct.
He grabs the blanket in their bed and pulls it up over them for extra warmth.
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Date: 2023-12-01 01:02 am (UTC)His eyes burn and he closes them, curling around Xue Yang and reminding himself that he isn't alone. He isn't as dead as he thought he was either. There is some...hope. Just a glimmer, but enough of a glimmer to pursue.
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Date: 2023-12-06 08:47 pm (UTC)He shudders a little to himself as if cold and buries his face into Song Lan's chest, clinging even tighter to him.
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Date: 2023-12-07 12:27 pm (UTC)He frowns at the shudder and does what he can to warm Xue Yang, rubbing over his arms and back.
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Date: 2023-12-15 06:24 pm (UTC)He grabs the blanket in their bed and pulls it up over them for extra warmth.