"You could have told him the truth if you hadn't made him kill." Zichen then adds, "Or killed my Master and brothers." or done any of the killings, truly. But that was probably taking it too far back.
"If you had asked him for help, he would have given it. I, on the other hand, would have carted you off by the scruff of your neck."
"If I'd never killed anyone, I wouldn't have met him. Or you." Which would've been better for them of course. They wouldn't be missing body parts, would probably still be out there, wandering around, helping people. Xue Yang isn't sure how he feels thinking about that. It's uncomfortable.
Song Lan's next comment makes him laugh a little. "And if you'd found me half-dead in a ditch? Guessing you would've done the smart thing and just let me die there, huh?"
"No." Zichen ignores the what ifs and could have beens and instead focuses on that last question, "I can heal and I would want you nice and healthy when you answered for your crimes."
Like hell would he let a wound or an infection carry Xue Yang away!
Xue Yang laughs. He probably shouldn't find the thought of that funny, but he does. "Aish, would you at least have killed me yourself?" Revenge he understands, better than most probably!
"I don't know." Zichen considers the possibility, "That would depend on your behavior." then his eyes narrow, "I'm sure you were pathetic when you were injured."
"I probably would've pissed you off so much you'd have killed me no matter how pathetic I looked." Xue Yang definitely would've provoked Song Lan a lot...
"I have more self-control than you think." but...not much. Not when it comes to bratty demonic cultivators. Zichen has very specific buttons and Xue Yang knows how to push them.
"I'm good at pushing your buttons," Xue Yang says as he absentmindedly trails a finger down Song Lan's chest. He'd done it at Baixue, and then in Yi City. Both times he had got exactly what he'd wanted out of Song Lan at the time.
"Sometimes I do," Xue Yang admits. It's a defense mechanism in him that is hard to get rid of, and not just where Song Lan is concerned. He lashes out at anyone if they make him feel like he has to defend himself. He leans up a little and gently headbutts Song Lan's chin, like a cat. "But not right now."
Xue Yang shrugs. "I just do. I guess it... makes me feel better?" He makes an uncomfortable face and snuggles up a little closer. He's not quite in touch with his own emotions enough to understand that he uses it as a defense. That most of his lashing out comes down to feeling vulnerable and feeling the need to go on the offensive. Because being vulnerable is dangerous.
He hums into the kiss and slides his arms around Song Lan's neck, relaxing into it.
"Mm." Zichen nods slowly, accepting that answer. It takes time to understand the root of things. Xue Yang has been through (and caused) a lot of trauma. That just makes things more confusing. It's almost like trying to swim in incredibly murky water.
Their kisses are less complicated, however, and Zichen sighs, rubbing over Xue Yang's back before he grabs his hips.
"Mm..." Xue Yang definitely prefers kissing over talking about his feelings, so the distraction is very welcome. He presses into the kiss with a pleased little hum, his hands slipping into Song Lan's hair.
Frankly, he does too. Zichen is tired of feeling the ache of tension in his head and his body. Kissing Xue Yang is soft and hot. He doesn't feel like a corpse when they are pressed together.
Smoothing a hand up his lover's abdomen, he growls possessively. Like he wants to devour him.
A shiver rushes down Xue Yang's spine hearing that growling. It's addictive how much this man seems to desire him. How much he desires him right back. He deepens the kiss, starting to feel hot and needy as he presses himself up closer.
The hunger doesn't seem to have an end! Zichen has never felt anything like this and his body acts without thought, his teeth sinking into Xue Yang's shoulder and one of his hands wrapping around his cock.
Xue Yang has never felt this much desire for another person before either. Not even Xiao Xingchen, he realizes, though that may just be because they had never been intimate like this. If they had ever gotten that far, well, then he probably would've driven himself even more crazy with longing.
Not something he wants to think about now though, and thankfully, Song Lan provides the perfect distraction. He groans when he's bitten and rocks needily into his lover's hand, his cock already hardening at a rapid pace. "Harder," he gasps, "Bite me more..."
He doesn't want to think about Xiao Xingchen right now. The other man would be disappointed - and maybe disturbed - by him, but they have both been changed. Zichen hasn't really known what to do with himself or where he belongs since his first 'death' on Shuanghua's blade.
Yet now... He feels good. He feels wanted and warm and Xue Yang doesn't mind when he is a bit rough. That's almost therapeutic. Moaning, he bites along Xue Yang's shoulder and neck, leaving vivid marks. His hand strokes his lover at the same time.
Yeah, Xue Yang doesn't want to think about him either, or what his reaction might be if he found out about him and Song Lan.
The biting and stroking successfully distract him from all other thoughts however. He very much likes the roughness too, likes knowing he's so wanted and desired. That someone feels passion for him. He would like to hear Song Lan call his name too, but that will have to wait until he gets his tongue back.
"Ah, ah, fuck, come back inside me..." he gasps, growing needier and more impatient by the second.
Coating his cock in salve, Zichen doesn't bother dawdling. He wants to be back inside of Xue Yang too and he wants his reckless, aimless thoughts to stop. One of the more distracting realizations is not about Xiao Xingchen, but rather about Xue Yang.
Moaning as he slides into the tight heat, he fills his lover once again, toying with the head of the other man's cock.
"Fuck... yes," Xue Yang groans when Song Lan slides back inside of him. The stretch and burn just makes it feel more intense. He wraps his legs around Song Lan's waist, pressing his heels into his back to encourage him to keep going until he's all the way inside.
Gasping and shaking, Zichen does bury himself in Xue Yang. Completely. So much so that he can feel their pulses thrumming at the same rate. His eyes burn...
Xue Yang frowns a little when he notices the tear. Is Song Lan... crying? Why? He wants to ask, but at the same time, he doesn't. He might not like what Song Lan would tell him. So instead he leans up and somewhat impulsively kisses that tear away, arms and legs embracing his lover close to his body.
It's entirely out of his control. The tears roll down his cheeks and, truly, they have little to do with Xue Yang or...this. It's just...
Zichen never thought anyone would want to touch him - or that he, in turn, could ever have contact with someone else. Yet...
Here they are and there is something beautiful about Xue Yang. Something that calls to him. The soft lips and the warm embrace help him get control again and he begins to move...tenderly. Rubbing their bodies together with soft mewls.
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Date: 2023-10-26 07:54 pm (UTC)"If you had asked him for help, he would have given it. I, on the other hand, would have carted you off by the scruff of your neck."
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Date: 2023-10-26 07:59 pm (UTC)Song Lan's next comment makes him laugh a little. "And if you'd found me half-dead in a ditch? Guessing you would've done the smart thing and just let me die there, huh?"
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Date: 2023-10-26 08:04 pm (UTC)Like hell would he let a wound or an infection carry Xue Yang away!
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Date: 2023-10-27 11:07 am (UTC)(suddenly i really want a canon au psl where song lan is the one who finds xue yang in that ditch)
Date: 2023-10-27 12:41 pm (UTC)>:3 Yes. SL would be so torn.
Date: 2023-10-27 12:50 pm (UTC)xxc is just off elsewhere on peaceful adventures with a-qing while sl deals with a gremlin lmao
Date: 2023-10-27 12:54 pm (UTC)So many frowns would happen. And huffs.
Date: 2023-10-27 12:59 pm (UTC)"Is that what you want to do? Press my buttons?" or would he rather entice him and play nice?
but it would be better for everyone in the end <3
Date: 2023-10-27 01:07 pm (UTC)it would ;n;
Date: 2023-10-27 01:15 pm (UTC)The headbutting is distracting and Zichen draws the other man into a soft kiss.
"You're too sleepy to use your claws."
if u wanna rp that, i could write a starter? :3
Date: 2023-10-27 01:20 pm (UTC)He hums into the kiss and slides his arms around Song Lan's neck, relaxing into it.
yes please! :3
Date: 2023-10-27 01:28 pm (UTC)Their kisses are less complicated, however, and Zichen sighs, rubbing over Xue Yang's back before he grabs his hips.
i sent u a pm :3
Date: 2023-10-27 01:38 pm (UTC)Got it <3
Date: 2023-10-27 01:51 pm (UTC)Smoothing a hand up his lover's abdomen, he growls possessively. Like he wants to devour him.
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Date: 2023-10-27 08:47 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-10-27 10:44 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-10-28 08:00 am (UTC)Not something he wants to think about now though, and thankfully, Song Lan provides the perfect distraction. He groans when he's bitten and rocks needily into his lover's hand, his cock already hardening at a rapid pace. "Harder," he gasps, "Bite me more..."
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Date: 2023-10-28 10:42 am (UTC)Yet now... He feels good. He feels wanted and warm and Xue Yang doesn't mind when he is a bit rough. That's almost therapeutic. Moaning, he bites along Xue Yang's shoulder and neck, leaving vivid marks. His hand strokes his lover at the same time.
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Date: 2023-10-30 01:43 pm (UTC)The biting and stroking successfully distract him from all other thoughts however. He very much likes the roughness too, likes knowing he's so wanted and desired. That someone feels passion for him. He would like to hear Song Lan call his name too, but that will have to wait until he gets his tongue back.
"Ah, ah, fuck, come back inside me..." he gasps, growing needier and more impatient by the second.
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Date: 2023-10-30 02:04 pm (UTC)Moaning as he slides into the tight heat, he fills his lover once again, toying with the head of the other man's cock.
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Date: 2023-10-30 03:54 pm (UTC)A tear rolls down his cheek.
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Date: 2023-10-30 09:58 pm (UTC)Zichen never thought anyone would want to touch him - or that he, in turn, could ever have contact with someone else. Yet...
Here they are and there is something beautiful about Xue Yang. Something that calls to him. The soft lips and the warm embrace help him get control again and he begins to move...tenderly. Rubbing their bodies together with soft mewls.
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